The last few days has shown me that trips down memory lane can be both edifying and traumatic - in this case edifying. I learned a lot about myself and decided that the best process continues to be just to get these books written. It is something that meant a lot to my grandfather and to my mother both of whom played a huge role in my life. It is amazing how much the people you were with as a child resulted in being most emphatic in your whole life. Certainly my grandfather died when I was just eight years of age but in my mind I wanted him to be there for quite a while longer although my grandmother over time eased that loss by replacing it with her but mostly it was my little brother who reminded me of Grandpa amazingly. He was only eleven when I got married so I missed all those exciting teenage years and we had moved away before he was twenty. I remember the letters from my mother when he traveled west across Canada. It wasn't so much that it was deep worry but more that he was gone. She missed him. But he came back all grown up but I didn't see him very often. He is a busy grandfather now and such a wonderful person.
Today the cleaning continues and it is the main floor. For some reason my Robot didn't charge so I had to do that and then do the rug so the basement wasn't complete until afternoon so I left the main floor for today and tomorrow I will do the top floor. That is the nicest thing; that I can just shift things about and get the work done on a schedule that works for me although I have always done it that way. It was getting harder and harder for Edward to move about but one thing he had taken on when I was still working was vacuuming the floors so even though it took him quite a while to do it all I let him do it. The exercise was wonderful for him and it gave him something that he worked at on a schedule that suited him. I just dusted behind him and did the scrubbing. He actually vacuumed right up until the last year when he mostly let it go so I picked that up. Life can be difficult when you are ill I think. The worst part for him was not being able to go shopping. He loved to shop and we always came home with something that he wanted. It was his money; I didn't care how he wanted to spend his money. But I do realize that can also be a luxury if both have not been working for years and years.
Dawn has broken on another one of God's days and we look for peace in this world. A world where people namely the Ukrainians and the Israelis are not constantly threatened by their neighbour. Hamas and Russia are very sinful people who think only of themselves willingly sending people to death for their cause - whatever it is. The lines have become blurred but there are still so many people still held hostage both alive and dead - free the hostages and let them go home to their loving families. What a satanic sickness these people suffer - Hamas and Russia. Their peoples must rise up against those who cause the problems and cast them out.
So today I continue with the matches and I am up to I now. Perhaps over 1/3rd done and approaching 1/2. I have put 33 aside for various reasons but mostly they just do not appear to be complete for whatever reason. Having so many good matches (over a thousand) one can judge the fitting somewhat better. It just isn't really worth the time to look at it - not significant enough given what I already have. I seldom write a match and really have not in the past.
The books still bubbling about in my brain and I return to my solitude and work that I have decided belongs to my old age. It is funny to think old age; I really am still managing quite well with my 30 minute run every day. I think running is the best exercise; the body is made for running for sure. The rowing, the biking, yoga, calisthenics, weightlifting are all good but the running is a complete exercise.
Teatime and solitaire.